A
famous saying goes like this-
If
you love someone set them free,
If
they come back they are yours, If they dont,
They
never were!
This
proverb has proven true for many relations at different stages of my life.
Many relations withstood the
testing
times and proved that there are FRIENDS FOREVER for real but
today
I want to pay my last visit to a 13year old relation which died
last
year.
That friendship had started on 5august2000 which was my 1st day in
national college and i saw my school mate miss Rana in class. I sat
besides her and we started talking.
We
both used 2 wonder at times on how strange it is that we were together for
10years
in school and yet we hardly spoke that time, later i felt
proud
that i had her as a friend. We were together in college for 4yrs
out
of 5 and i was somehow always special than others or atleast i
thought
i was. After college for 2yrs things were still like always
and
then things began to drift apart. She had this habit of not
answering
the phone, neither calling back after seeing the missed
calls,
no reply to msges and that too not just for 1 or 2days but for
couple
of months in a row. Her behaviour was always like that but for
others
i was special I thought and hence when the same things happened
with
me i dint like it (normal human behaviour i guess). Later I
stopped
calling her thinking she is too busy with her job as it
required
travelling a lot and only called her when it was utmost
unavoidable
but yet i got the same reaction. This went on for few
years
and then 1day something which had never happened between us
occured.
We fought. And when you fight your upset and you say things
which
you dont mean to (thats again my perspective, i dont know about
others).
She said that it was me who was behaving immature and that
she
was always like that for all, she never differentiated between her
friends
etc. Which was nice to hear (she's a practised equality, nice
na?).
I just had 1 thing to say that was she dint set the right
expectations
in our relation in the initial stage (what else did i
have
to say when logic dawned on me that during college days and later
the
only reason she answered my calls and msges might be because we
have
to travel together?) Then there are always those relations you
never
want to give up on so few days after the fight i took a momento
of
friendship as a birthday gift and met her even after all our hectic
schedule
at 10pm below her building. We had a good time for 15minutes
and
i left. Stupid me I thought that the storm was over and came home
smiling
but I guess it was not. things just went bad to worse. The
birthday
wish
just remained a formality for her to return on my birthday and
later
my
last words at the end of that fighting phone call proved themselves I
had
told her that "This is the last time I am calling you, my last
effort
to
maintain hence forth if you feel that this friendship is important
for
you,
then am a phone call away." and i never got a call in the last year.
So my last tribute to a friendship and a friend.
A friend with whom I laughed a lot, A friend for whom I
invented the
dialogue "duniya mei harr type k sample hote hai aur tujhe un sabko jhelne
ko taiyaar hona chahiye" because she would react with amazement at the
weird fashion sense of people in college, a friend who made us ( me and
khadija) walk from national college all the way to Mac Donald's to see
sharukh's hoarding and i could still not kill her, a friend for whom i
fought with many of my other school mates not to call her NEPALI to the
point that i blackmailed my other friends i'l stop talking to them,a friend to
celebrate whose birthday i went at 8pm in evening below whose building and made
her blow a candle and cut a pastry while singing the birthday song and smiling
at passerby's just because she was sad and dint want to celebrate her
birthday,a friend for whom i lied to many people and am still lying to few
people that everything is good between us. But this july i realised that the
lies had to stop and the wait has to end and so i thought of ending it with a
bang.
I know publishing this post is somewhat fatal as she's
still a friend on facebook and if she doesnt follow my posts there are many
common friends who can inform her about it because they'l understand whom i am
talking of and the reaction might be a sarcastic or heart piercing comment on
public but I still want to go ahead and publish it.
HAPPY
FRIENDSHIP'S DAY!
