Friendship lost

A famous saying goes like this-

 If you love someone set them free, 

If they come back they are yours, If they dont, 

They never were! 

This proverb has proven true for many relations at different stages of my life. Many relations withstood the

    testing times and proved that there are FRIENDS FOREVER for real but

    today I want to pay my last visit to a 13year old relation which died

    last year.            

    That friendship had started on 5august2000 which was my 1st day in national college and i saw my school mate miss Rana in class. I sat besides her and we started talking.           

We both used 2 wonder at times on how strange it is that we were together for

    10years in school and yet we hardly spoke that time, later i felt

    proud that i had her as a friend. We were together in college for 4yrs

    out of 5 and i was somehow always special than others or atleast i

    thought i was. After college for 2yrs things were still like always

    and then things began to drift apart. She had this habit of not

    answering the phone, neither calling back after seeing the missed

    calls, no reply to msges and that too not just for 1 or 2days but for

    couple of months in a row. Her behaviour was always like that but for

    others i was special I thought and hence when the same things happened

    with me i dint like it (normal human behaviour i guess). Later I

    stopped calling her thinking she is too busy with her job as it

    required travelling a lot and only called her when it was utmost

    unavoidable but yet i got the same reaction. This went on for few

    years and then 1day something which had never happened between us

    occured. We fought. And when you fight your upset and you say things

    which you dont mean to (thats again my perspective, i dont know about

    others). She said that it was me who was behaving immature and that

    she was always like that for all, she never differentiated between her

    friends etc. Which was nice to hear (she's a practised equality, nice

    na?). I just had 1 thing to say that was she dint set the right

    expectations in our relation in the initial stage (what else did i

    have to say when logic dawned on me that during college days and later

    the only reason she answered my calls and msges might be because we

    have to travel together?) Then there are always those relations you

    never want to give up on so few days after the fight i took a momento

    of friendship as a birthday gift and met her even after all our hectic

    schedule at 10pm below her building. We had a good time for 15minutes

    and i left. Stupid me I thought that the storm was over and came home

    smiling but I guess it was not. things just went bad to worse. The

    birthday

    wish just remained a formality for her to return on my birthday and

    later

    my last words at the end of that fighting phone call proved themselves I

    had told her that "This is the last time I am calling you, my last

    effort

    to maintain hence forth if you feel that this friendship is important

    for

    you, then am a phone call away." and i never got a call in the last year.

  

        So my last tribute to a friendship and a friend.

        A friend with whom I laughed a lot, A friend for whom I invented the

  dialogue "duniya mei harr type k sample hote hai aur tujhe un sabko jhelne

  ko taiyaar hona chahiye" because she would react with amazement at the

  weird fashion sense of people in college, a friend who made us ( me and

  khadija) walk from national college all the way to Mac Donald's to see

  sharukh's hoarding and i could still not kill her, a friend for whom i

  fought with many of my other school mates not to call her NEPALI to the

  point that i blackmailed my other friends i'l stop talking to them,a friend to celebrate whose birthday i went at 8pm in evening below whose building and made her blow a candle and cut a pastry while singing the birthday song and smiling at passerby's just because she was sad and dint want to celebrate her birthday,a friend for whom i lied to many people and am still lying to few people that everything is good between us. But this july i realised that the lies had to stop and the wait has to end and so i thought of ending it with a bang.   

I know publishing this post is somewhat fatal as she's still a friend on facebook and if she doesnt follow my posts there are many common friends who can inform her about it because they'l understand whom i am talking of and the reaction might be a sarcastic or heart piercing comment on public but I still want to go ahead and publish it.

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP'S DAY!