LETTING THEM KNOW!

No matter how good a you are in expressing  yourself there will always be a few people in your life to whom you just cant express your real feelings or thoughts. Whether you love them or hate them you cant tell them what you feel.

After I lost my father this august in a car accident me and everybody in my family felt it to be most heart breaking as it was sudden and unexpected. Well you never are prepared for death whether it is sudden like an accident or by some long term illness. We all had so much to tell dad in our hearts which will now remain in our hearts forever, he would never be able to hear what we wanted to say.

But apart from the grief that we are experiencing right now I want to implement one thing in my life and wish that after reading this someone else might also implement it. We all take life and more then life, death for granted and keep pending things for tomorrow when everyone of us knows that there might be no tomorrow for us. So go ahead and express yourself to the person you love.
The word LOVE has different meaning for different people and even the meaning has changed from generation to generation. Love for me doesn’t just have one meaning that of a love affair. Love for me is when I know I feel someone is special for me even as a friend and that’s when I owe to tell him or her that I love him for the friend that he is to me. Love is when I had a really good time on a trip or on an evening with someone even if I don’t know him much still I owe to tell him/her that I had a good time with him/her and thank him from my heart for it. love is when I hug my mom and other people around me in the moment.

“If you feel it say it”

You may not get a 2^nd chance to tell them what you hold in your heart for them.

But love is not the only emotion that needs to be expressed. There are a few others too. Like anger or disappointment or any other feeling you feel. Express yourself to the person you feel those emotions for. Because you may not know but after expressing yourselves your conflicts might as well get sorted out or at least your inner conflicts certainly will be resolved. Even apology's are important. If its you who is to say sorry dont delay it and if someone asks for your apology go ahead and forgive them with a big heart because anyways your not going to take all this hatred and bitterness in your after life whatever bitterness is der will only remain till you are alive. Choose to live with satisfaction, enjoying and savouring every flavour life has to offer be it good bad or ugly. I did so...

So go ahead and tell them what you hold for them.

Now that your gone

I never thought this would happen to me or our family. Feared death but never thought it would hit u above all of us and that too in such a sudden way. Read about accidents but never thought i would loose you in one. Now your gone in a car accident that too in a fraction of minutes and without saying goodbye to any of us and we all are shattered. None of us know how to live without a father or a grandpa and above all now i know how precious you were for mom. Now your not at home and i long for someone to irritate me over my cooking and to hear someone tell mom to come with him for morning walks. How do i explain HEER and KAAVI that DADA would never take them out again. I wanted to say a lot of things but now your gone. Your gone and so is your smile and laughter. God wanted to show us how much respect you have earned in the outside world thats good but the way he chose to show us was wrong. Slowly all your things would also be given away to others no matter how much i dont want to give them away nobody would listen. Looking at mom alone at this age i wish god would have taken me but not you. She needs a partner a companion more then anything at this age. Where did i go wrong what sins did i for god to punish me like this. In every prayer i wished for everyone's safety and now it feels god never listened to any of them. Everyone says to remain strong but nobody says how? The shelter the roof the protection of a father is gone and now i feel so vulnerable and volatile. Am just blank without you. There's loads to talk but your not there.