a battle lost

I had heard that a soulmate is someone who can understand your silence,
but felt d opposite to be true,
I had heard you feel uncontrollablly attracted towards your soulmate,
and that proved to be true but only from my side,
I had heard that love gives you strength to fight wit the world,
and was ready to do so,
but still I lost the battle,
I lost it to him,
he never really thot of me d same way I did,
he never thot of me as a soulmate,
I still remember the 1st time I met him,
I felt breathless pull towards him,
but probably it was just one sided,
I lost the battle of my heart,
I lost it to him,
as he never saw a soulmate in me,

I caught myself going back again and again to him,
even though I was not welcomed by him,
in a hope that someday he will realise wat we have is not just a small attraction, but a relation way stronger,
but found myself to be more and more week day by day,
as I kept loosing all hopes against hopes,

in my journey of loving him I hurted many other souls,
I just wanted to live,
to live a relation that was rightfully mine,
a relation I had always dreamed of,
but I lost my battle,
I lost it to him
as he dint see me d same way as I saw him,

I can see in his behaviour that he can't deny the fact that he feels something strong for me too,
and I fail to understand y he cannot see me d way I see him,
is he really so unaware of the connection of souls,
or is he just pretending to be unaware of my pain,
even after all that I am going through,
I will loose this battle too,

I may surrender to the worldly pressure
but In my heart I will always wonder,
had I won the battle to his heart
would I have for once lived the relation which was rightfully mine.