Thursday 2 August 2012

Friendship lost


A famous saying goes like this-
 If you love someone set them free, 
If they come back they are yours, If they dont, 
They never were! 
This proverb has proven true for many relations at different stages of my life. Many relations withstood the
    testing times and proved that there are FRIENDS FOREVER for real but
    today I want to pay my last visit to a 13year old relation which died
    last year.            
    That friendship had started on 5august2000 which was my 1st day in national college and i saw my school mate miss Rana in class. I sat besides her and we started talking.           
We both used 2 wonder at times on how strange it is that we were together for
    10years in school and yet we hardly spoke that time, later i felt
    proud that i had her as a friend. We were together in college for 4yrs
    out of 5 and i was somehow always special than others or atleast i
    thought i was. After college for 2yrs things were still like always
    and then things began to drift apart. She had this habit of not
    answering the phone, neither calling back after seeing the missed
    calls, no reply to msges and that too not just for 1 or 2days but for
    couple of months in a row. Her behaviour was always like that but for
    others i was special I thought and hence when the same things happened
    with me i dint like it (normal human behaviour i guess). Later I
    stopped calling her thinking she is too busy with her job as it
    required travelling a lot and only called her when it was utmost
    unavoidable but yet i got the same reaction. This went on for few
    years and then 1day something which had never happened between us
    occured. We fought. And when you fight your upset and you say things
    which you dont mean to (thats again my perspective, i dont know about
    others). She said that it was me who was behaving immature and that
    she was always like that for all, she never differentiated between her
    friends etc. Which was nice to hear (she's a practised equality, nice
    na?). I just had 1 thing to say that was she dint set the right
    expectations in our relation in the initial stage (what else did i
    have to say when logic dawned on me that during college days and later
    the only reason she answered my calls and msges might be because we
    have to travel together?) Then there are always those relations you
    never want to give up on so few days after the fight i took a momento
    of friendship as a birthday gift and met her even after all our hectic
    schedule at 10pm below her building. We had a good time for 15minutes
    and i left. Stupid me I thought that the storm was over and came home
    smiling but I guess it was not. things just went bad to worse. The
    birthday
    wish just remained a formality for her to return on my birthday and
    later
    my last words at the end of that fighting phone call proved themselves I
    had told her that "This is the last time I am calling you, my last
    effort
    to maintain hence forth if you feel that this friendship is important
    for
    you, then am a phone call away." and i never got a call in the last year.
  
        So my last tribute to a friendship and a friend.
        A friend with whom I laughed a lot, A friend for whom I invented the
  dialogue "duniya mei harr type k sample hote hai aur tujhe un sabko jhelne
  ko taiyaar hona chahiye" because she would react with amazement at the
  weird fashion sense of people in college, a friend who made us ( me and
  khadija) walk from national college all the way to Mac Donald's to see
  sharukh's hoarding and i could still not kill her, a friend for whom i
  fought with many of my other school mates not to call her NEPALI to the
  point that i blackmailed my other friends i'l stop talking to them,a friend to celebrate whose birthday i went at 8pm in evening below whose building and made her blow a candle and cut a pastry while singing the birthday song and smiling at passerby's just because she was sad and dint want to celebrate her birthday,a friend for whom i lied to many people and am still lying to few people that everything is good between us. But this july i realised that the lies had to stop and the wait has to end and so i thought of ending it with a bang.   

I know publishing this post is somewhat fatal as she's still a friend on facebook and if she doesnt follow my posts there are many common friends who can inform her about it because they'l understand whom i am talking of and the reaction might be a sarcastic or heart piercing comment on public but I still want to go ahead and publish it.


HAPPY FRIENDSHIP'S DAY!