About thank you's and sorries

Yesterday i got a news that one of my school time batch mate mr.Tushar.Ibhad passed away due to heart attack. WTF!!! that was my reaction when i heard it. I was shocked and stunned as he was hardly 28 and a heart attack at 28 is least expected. My heart felt condolences to his family although i dont know anybody personally but i can feel their pain as i went through the same pain in this august after loosing my dad.
Some of you may think that am trying to opportune my friends death by writting this post. But there's nothing likt that.

One of Tushar's achievements i just found worth sharing!

Tushar had his short but imp role in my life because he was the person who introduced me to another dearest friend of mine and i would like to cherish tushar's memory like that as i cherish many memories with my the other friend whom tushar introduced me to.
There is also another reason why am writing this post and that reason is in the past 3 months death has snatched some people from my life at regular intervals. Which makes me think about many philosophical questions like why am I born, what is the reason for my existance etc...
I really cant figure out the answer to all these questions at this stage but the only thing i figured out even after my father's death and now after my batch mates death is we are all here to play small parts in each other's life in someway or the other so we should only try that what small role we are playing should someday be a sweet memory in someone else's life.
Life is too short to spread bitterness in other people's life and hence i take this opportunity to say sorry and thank you to all my friends,relatives and aquaintances. Please forgive me if i ever hurt you. I know i have hurt quite a few people and am sorry.
Also thank you to all those who have loved me even after my blunders i mean it you people are more precious to me then diamonds including my family members in this list...
So; sorry and thank you to all...
Love ya...
Hoping that this post affects a few others hearts and makes them spread thank you's to their loved ones if not sorries.

12 long years

What is a right or wrong? Hurting someone you love for your own peace is right or wrong?

Is it a wrong to spend a day with someone you have long desired. A desire of 12 years.12 years of imagining your crush in every romantic scene with yourself... 12 long years of being there in front of your childhood crush as a friend and yet not getting the moments with him that you have always dreamed of... 12 years of seeing him or her always being someone else's love and yet being there to hold them when they fall. A person with whom your relation feels like that can only be the defination of what people call as being "Soul Mates."

After such long time, now when both of you are on the verge of taking the big leap of your life;you feel like you need to spend sometime with each other is it right or wrong.
Someone asked me this question wether its unfair to your current or future partner if you spend time with your age old or century old crush before you take your big leap with someone other than that crush..

A few memories is all that you need to go ahead? I told her no! Its absolutely alright to be with that crush for some good quality time. Afterall, what you do in search of your inner peace can never be wrong or hurtful. Ofcourse their future partners may never understand why the hell they took this decision; but it would be good for them if they are at peace with themselves.
A wait this big deserves its rightful time because before anyone else it was a story of these 2 people. I was touched by this question and it put me to think and thinking of it just overwhelmed me with emotions.
We are at an age where settling down is now the much needed next step for us ( by us i mean people between 27 to 32 years of age ) but before taking the leap we need to be at peace with ourselves to involve someone else in our life and share our life with them.
The inner peace maybe anything from a regret of not choosing a proper career to such a scene where letting someone know how you feel or felt about them to spending a day with them. Because marriage brings along with it lots of other challenges for both the genders. Its a relation which asks you to give a lot of yourself in order to sustain it and make it strong nd in such a condition if your not stable within things shake. So go ahead and make peace with yourself 1st then involve someone else in your life.

misunderstood by many

She was in the middle of a wedding getting bored when she received her bestfriend’s call. She answered it thinking it was a routine call and it would spare her from getting bored meeting the relatives she never knew existed. But the news that he gave left her in shock and pain. Vivek informed her that her friend anuj died in a bike accident 2 days back and vivek came to know it now and called her asap. He died on the spot.

Diya was blank…

The smile on the happy faces of the newly wedded couple and their family members dint affect her anymore. She was lost in her thoughts of seeing him at the bus stop of satyam college. She was going back home and had one day noticed him someday suddenly. He was alone and had an expression somewhere between carelessness and attitude. He was content within himself. Then she noticed he took the same bus and got down just a stop before hers. Next she knew she used to see him daily at the bus stop. She kind of started enjoying her ride from the bus stop to her home looking at him. It wasn’t attraction neither infactuation, it was just some goodness to her eyes. He was kind of cute in a different way. After a few weeks she saw a common friend talking to her and to her luck the friend noticed her standing alone and also introduced the two of them and then started a new friendship. She did not have any other intention or feelings except that she enjoyed anuj’s company. They started going home together and she actually forced him to sit for lectures. Anuj liked her company too and the sole reason for that was because she was a complete tom boy. Never behaved like a girl psychologically. He could be himself when with her. He could abuse normally, smoke to his heart’s content and also they checked out other girls together in the canteen. Gradually all his male friends started linking them together but he would only reply that she already likes someone else… which was the truth. she did like someone else.

All the way back to her home from the wedding she was quite.

She wept herself to sleep thinking about all the time spent with anuj. She had so much to tell him. He was one of the person who never let her cry in his company even if the agenda of their meet was that she wanted to cry. He had a tendency to get out of touch for months at a stretch which irritated her a lot after she changed college. But she kept meeting him. The 2 things peculiar about anuj were that he was the 1^st guys to keep a lip balm with him and that was the secret to his temptingly pink lips which diya complimented him many times for and other thing was he would never sit on a ladies seat in the bus. All her memories of him have only been sweet. He liked her company and there might have been a possible relation sometime if life had planned it but for now she missed him badly and wanted to tell him many things.

Her memories of him always had the brightest smile on his face.

The next day even though she was not allowed to call at his home. She called spoke to his sister and requested for a picture of his so that she could always cherish it.

For the world diya and anuj where probably a couple although they were never really one. Even his sister thought that they were in love when diya called for a picture. But to diya anuj will always be a friend who always made her smile and with whom she was herself without any masks on.

Even afters year of his death she still remembers him when she travels by bus or visits the places they had been together.