Why judge someones class

Today a strange thing happened while i was going back home.
I travel by the famous western railway trains from lower parel to bandra.
I was standing in the corridor near the door and it was empty so i was carelessly listening to the song "jab koi baat bigad jaye" when the train reached dadar station and just when the train was about to start again a lady boarded the train running.
As the train caught its pace another lady said "ye 1st class hai; aap doosare station pe utar jaana"
The lady stood quietly at her place.
In a fraction of seconds some other female said that "doosara station woh side aayega; aap utar jaana"
The 1st lady still dint say anything. Slowly more females started telling her that you should get down at other station and the females started conversing to each other things like "ye log galat kar rahe hai" "they are not supposed to travel by 1st class" etc.
To which the lady replied "mere pass RAILWAY PASS hai aur waise bhi mai mahim utar jaungi."
Again the females started saying things like "ek toh wrong compartment mei chade toh phir mahim utar k kya matlab" "yeh log rule todte hai" etc. By now matunga had been crossed and mahim was about to come.
All the educated and sophisticated ladies were boiling with rage now as if they all wanted to just humiliate the female for boarding a 1st class compartment purposely.
To answer their rage the lady quietly removed her pass from her pocket and showed it to one of the female..... It was a pass to travel by 1st class with her photograph on the I card.
Sudden silence..............
Mahim came and the lady patiently got down with a humble smile towards the ladies...
For me it was like a movie scene where the hero has a glorious victory. As the train passed mahim i was smiling looking at the faces of the other females...
A few of them felt humiliated themselves...
And why all this fuss...
Just because the female in question was looking like she belonged to a lower middle class background and couldnt  afford a 1st class pass; which is because she was wearing a very plain saree which would naturally give that impression to others and that might be the truth also for all we know.
But being from a lower middle class doesnt mean she can not travel by 1st class, right?
Which made me think why is it so normal for people to make an assumption about someone from their clothes and looks.
I thought about it as i was also wearing a dull kurti as every once a while i get tired of dressing up and then i take anything that comes in my hand and wear it and move out. If it wasnt for the smart phone in my hand and my careless attitude could it have been me in that lady's place???
who knows!!!
i also agree that there are people who wrongly travel by 1st class even when they dont have a pass and am not encouraging them by any mean.
We have always heard but never practise it properly "DO NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER"
I enjoyed my journey back home today for all its fun...
Sometimes i do love travelling in the mumbai railways.

also posted on yourstoryclub/author/dikshal

What happens when a relation breaks

I got the idea of this post when i myself got a pang in my heart yesterday while walking back home.
One of my close friend stays just a few buildings away from my place and i cross his home everyday while going to and fro to my home.
But we have lost contacts now...
Which made me think...
What happens when a relation breaks???
 What do we all go through or is it just a few like me who go through it and then there are others whose life goes on like normal???
When some treasured relations break (by relations i mean friendships and other form of relations except love affairs) like some long long friendships what do people go through.
 My 1st reaction ( and i think that's wht most of us should do, if you treasure the relation) is to try and save that relation from dying. If that's within your limits you should try to sort out your differences, but sometimes there are reasons and pains bigger than your love for your dear friend and then you feel like you have to let them go.....
Wellllllll,,,,, they do call cancerians emotional fools and so even after all the pain your heart goes through, me being a true cancerian hope against all hope that the saying
"if you love someone set themfree and if they are yours they would come back"
Comes true and initially wait for people to come.
Then comes a phase where you remember all the good times you have spent toghether and again your heart yearns for it and you question yourself that doesnt the other person of this broken friendship remember any of those moments... Again sobbing and retreating in your shell because there are no answers coming your way certainly not a positive answer from the other end.
Occasionally you would even loose self control and ping or message or put up a status update for that person on your fb,watsapp,gtalk and bbm etc. Hoping that he or she reads it and reacts.
Then comes a self realization phase where you finally decide that you have to pick yourself up alone as there is no hand coming from the other end...
So like a defeated baby you pick yourself and the broken pieces of your heart together and try living life forward. Convincing yourself that life moves on...( and at the back of your mind remembering saif ali khan's famous dialogue from the movie HUM TUM : no byes ria zindagi bohat badi hai which means the story hasnt ended yet for you and your friend.)
Then you continue living your life normally...many new people enter your life a few other old ones leave your life due to some human psychological or social differences suddenly springing up between you and them or due to death..................................
but...................
life starts running with the same madening pace that it used to once upon a time.

Also i have realised that in a city like mumbai how difficult it is to bump into someone when you badly wish to bump into him or her. Which makes you realise that in mumbai's life you only meet people when you remove time for them from your schedule. You cant bump into someone even if they stay few steps away from your home. Imagine how much time of your life you gave to someone earlier when you met them and spent time with them.
But as i said life goes on...
If old friends are not there anymore you hang out with new people,you laugh,you smile,go out,party,take pics with new people,occasionally even flirt with a few and life goes on day by day month by month....
And then one fine day like yesterday....
your memories play tricks with your heart; in return your heart fucks up your mind and again in return your mind gives u that burning sensation in your heart of all the amazing time spent with that special person and that long long friemdship. you miss that person's presence in your life because once upon a time there where a few promises made as mad teenagers which you believed to be true from your end...
A promise that you would be friends for life...

About thank you's and sorries

Yesterday i got a news that one of my school time batch mate mr.Tushar.Ibhad passed away due to heart attack. WTF!!! that was my reaction when i heard it. I was shocked and stunned as he was hardly 28 and a heart attack at 28 is least expected. My heart felt condolences to his family although i dont know anybody personally but i can feel their pain as i went through the same pain in this august after loosing my dad.
Some of you may think that am trying to opportune my friends death by writting this post. But there's nothing likt that.

One of Tushar's achievements i just found worth sharing!

Tushar had his short but imp role in my life because he was the person who introduced me to another dearest friend of mine and i would like to cherish tushar's memory like that as i cherish many memories with my the other friend whom tushar introduced me to.
There is also another reason why am writing this post and that reason is in the past 3 months death has snatched some people from my life at regular intervals. Which makes me think about many philosophical questions like why am I born, what is the reason for my existance etc...
I really cant figure out the answer to all these questions at this stage but the only thing i figured out even after my father's death and now after my batch mates death is we are all here to play small parts in each other's life in someway or the other so we should only try that what small role we are playing should someday be a sweet memory in someone else's life.
Life is too short to spread bitterness in other people's life and hence i take this opportunity to say sorry and thank you to all my friends,relatives and aquaintances. Please forgive me if i ever hurt you. I know i have hurt quite a few people and am sorry.
Also thank you to all those who have loved me even after my blunders i mean it you people are more precious to me then diamonds including my family members in this list...
So; sorry and thank you to all...
Love ya...
Hoping that this post affects a few others hearts and makes them spread thank you's to their loved ones if not sorries.

12 long years

What is a right or wrong? Hurting someone you love for your own peace is right or wrong?

Is it a wrong to spend a day with someone you have long desired. A desire of 12 years.12 years of imagining your crush in every romantic scene with yourself... 12 long years of being there in front of your childhood crush as a friend and yet not getting the moments with him that you have always dreamed of... 12 years of seeing him or her always being someone else's love and yet being there to hold them when they fall. A person with whom your relation feels like that can only be the defination of what people call as being "Soul Mates."

After such long time, now when both of you are on the verge of taking the big leap of your life;you feel like you need to spend sometime with each other is it right or wrong.
Someone asked me this question wether its unfair to your current or future partner if you spend time with your age old or century old crush before you take your big leap with someone other than that crush..

A few memories is all that you need to go ahead? I told her no! Its absolutely alright to be with that crush for some good quality time. Afterall, what you do in search of your inner peace can never be wrong or hurtful. Ofcourse their future partners may never understand why the hell they took this decision; but it would be good for them if they are at peace with themselves.
A wait this big deserves its rightful time because before anyone else it was a story of these 2 people. I was touched by this question and it put me to think and thinking of it just overwhelmed me with emotions.
We are at an age where settling down is now the much needed next step for us ( by us i mean people between 27 to 32 years of age ) but before taking the leap we need to be at peace with ourselves to involve someone else in our life and share our life with them.
The inner peace maybe anything from a regret of not choosing a proper career to such a scene where letting someone know how you feel or felt about them to spending a day with them. Because marriage brings along with it lots of other challenges for both the genders. Its a relation which asks you to give a lot of yourself in order to sustain it and make it strong nd in such a condition if your not stable within things shake. So go ahead and make peace with yourself 1st then involve someone else in your life.

misunderstood by many

She was in the middle of a wedding getting bored when she received her bestfriend’s call. She answered it thinking it was a routine call and it would spare her from getting bored meeting the relatives she never knew existed. But the news that he gave left her in shock and pain. Vivek informed her that her friend anuj died in a bike accident 2 days back and vivek came to know it now and called her asap. He died on the spot.

Diya was blank…

The smile on the happy faces of the newly wedded couple and their family members dint affect her anymore. She was lost in her thoughts of seeing him at the bus stop of satyam college. She was going back home and had one day noticed him someday suddenly. He was alone and had an expression somewhere between carelessness and attitude. He was content within himself. Then she noticed he took the same bus and got down just a stop before hers. Next she knew she used to see him daily at the bus stop. She kind of started enjoying her ride from the bus stop to her home looking at him. It wasn’t attraction neither infactuation, it was just some goodness to her eyes. He was kind of cute in a different way. After a few weeks she saw a common friend talking to her and to her luck the friend noticed her standing alone and also introduced the two of them and then started a new friendship. She did not have any other intention or feelings except that she enjoyed anuj’s company. They started going home together and she actually forced him to sit for lectures. Anuj liked her company too and the sole reason for that was because she was a complete tom boy. Never behaved like a girl psychologically. He could be himself when with her. He could abuse normally, smoke to his heart’s content and also they checked out other girls together in the canteen. Gradually all his male friends started linking them together but he would only reply that she already likes someone else… which was the truth. she did like someone else.

All the way back to her home from the wedding she was quite.

She wept herself to sleep thinking about all the time spent with anuj. She had so much to tell him. He was one of the person who never let her cry in his company even if the agenda of their meet was that she wanted to cry. He had a tendency to get out of touch for months at a stretch which irritated her a lot after she changed college. But she kept meeting him. The 2 things peculiar about anuj were that he was the 1^st guys to keep a lip balm with him and that was the secret to his temptingly pink lips which diya complimented him many times for and other thing was he would never sit on a ladies seat in the bus. All her memories of him have only been sweet. He liked her company and there might have been a possible relation sometime if life had planned it but for now she missed him badly and wanted to tell him many things.

Her memories of him always had the brightest smile on his face.

The next day even though she was not allowed to call at his home. She called spoke to his sister and requested for a picture of his so that she could always cherish it.

For the world diya and anuj where probably a couple although they were never really one. Even his sister thought that they were in love when diya called for a picture. But to diya anuj will always be a friend who always made her smile and with whom she was herself without any masks on.

Even afters year of his death she still remembers him when she travels by bus or visits the places they had been together.

LETTING THEM KNOW!

No matter how good a you are in expressing  yourself there will always be a few people in your life to whom you just cant express your real feelings or thoughts. Whether you love them or hate them you cant tell them what you feel.

After I lost my father this august in a car accident me and everybody in my family felt it to be most heart breaking as it was sudden and unexpected. Well you never are prepared for death whether it is sudden like an accident or by some long term illness. We all had so much to tell dad in our hearts which will now remain in our hearts forever, he would never be able to hear what we wanted to say.

But apart from the grief that we are experiencing right now I want to implement one thing in my life and wish that after reading this someone else might also implement it. We all take life and more then life, death for granted and keep pending things for tomorrow when everyone of us knows that there might be no tomorrow for us. So go ahead and express yourself to the person you love.
The word LOVE has different meaning for different people and even the meaning has changed from generation to generation. Love for me doesn’t just have one meaning that of a love affair. Love for me is when I know I feel someone is special for me even as a friend and that’s when I owe to tell him or her that I love him for the friend that he is to me. Love is when I had a really good time on a trip or on an evening with someone even if I don’t know him much still I owe to tell him/her that I had a good time with him/her and thank him from my heart for it. love is when I hug my mom and other people around me in the moment.

“If you feel it say it”

You may not get a 2^nd chance to tell them what you hold in your heart for them.

But love is not the only emotion that needs to be expressed. There are a few others too. Like anger or disappointment or any other feeling you feel. Express yourself to the person you feel those emotions for. Because you may not know but after expressing yourselves your conflicts might as well get sorted out or at least your inner conflicts certainly will be resolved. Even apology's are important. If its you who is to say sorry dont delay it and if someone asks for your apology go ahead and forgive them with a big heart because anyways your not going to take all this hatred and bitterness in your after life whatever bitterness is der will only remain till you are alive. Choose to live with satisfaction, enjoying and savouring every flavour life has to offer be it good bad or ugly. I did so...

So go ahead and tell them what you hold for them.

Now that your gone

I never thought this would happen to me or our family. Feared death but never thought it would hit u above all of us and that too in such a sudden way. Read about accidents but never thought i would loose you in one. Now your gone in a car accident that too in a fraction of minutes and without saying goodbye to any of us and we all are shattered. None of us know how to live without a father or a grandpa and above all now i know how precious you were for mom. Now your not at home and i long for someone to irritate me over my cooking and to hear someone tell mom to come with him for morning walks. How do i explain HEER and KAAVI that DADA would never take them out again. I wanted to say a lot of things but now your gone. Your gone and so is your smile and laughter. God wanted to show us how much respect you have earned in the outside world thats good but the way he chose to show us was wrong. Slowly all your things would also be given away to others no matter how much i dont want to give them away nobody would listen. Looking at mom alone at this age i wish god would have taken me but not you. She needs a partner a companion more then anything at this age. Where did i go wrong what sins did i for god to punish me like this. In every prayer i wished for everyone's safety and now it feels god never listened to any of them. Everyone says to remain strong but nobody says how? The shelter the roof the protection of a father is gone and now i feel so vulnerable and volatile. Am just blank without you. There's loads to talk but your not there.